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I-I was telling this to... to someone else here...

And I remembered something awful. I don't understand it. What if he finds out?

Remembered something? What was it?

[And then his brain catches up with the 'awful' part of that statement and hastily adds..]

Um, you don't have to tell me if you don't want to...

It was a strange little man. He looked like an animal.

He said that a-a king... my father had sent him to kill me. That he'd lived a thousand years and his children were just dolls... And I had been thrown away.

I don't understand anything anymore. I don't know if I can tell anyone else at all. [She sniffs. Ankh knows a little bit, and Momo, too, but she hasn't told anyone the full effect of it yet.]

[Tsuna looks up at her with sympathy in his eyes.]

I've had.... visions like that too.

[He won't call them memories. Not yet.]

Not as bad as that, but... weird, at least. I don't really know what they are, but....

[Then he stands back up and set a gentle hand on her shoulder.]

I do know that you are not a doll. And no one in their right mind would ever throw you away.

[She shakes her head. And then she flings her arms around Tsuna.

She's a very touchy person. He said magic words.]

I am glad we're together.

Um-!

[He squeaks in embarrassed suprised when she suddenly hugs him. But then he relaxes into it and hugs her back. ]

Me too... If I didn't have you, and the rest of the band, I don't think I could handle any of this.

[That's gonna be a thing that happens a lot. Nia's the kinda girl who just grabs onto people a lot.]

I don't think I could've even stayed in the band if you were here. [She's still sure no one likes her much.]

[He smiles and shakes his head.]

C'mon, Nia. Aren't you the one who keeps telling me to have confidence? You're good. Anyone could see that.

Even if I am confident, and even if I play well, you're my only friend. [And she doesn't even know if he agrees with that designation. All she knows is that the first time, she recognizes that she's lonely.]

I would be here. I would play. But it's different. You actually liked me. [He's the first person who made it clear he had no intentions of throwing her away since this whole thing went down. This is her best attempt to appreciate that.]

Nia...

[Tsuna never even realized that she felt that way. When they met, Nia had seemed so confident, so sure of herself. But of course everyone has their insecurities. He feels a little guilty. He should have noticed.]

I bet a lot more people like you than you think. You're sweet, supportive, and optimistic. I can't even think of a reason not to like you. And I'm sure I'm not the only one.

[... Oh, Tsuna. Honey. She is not any of those things. She is pushy and reactive and super self-conscious in the public eye. She just thought you were like a baby bird or something.

She just holds onto him tighter for that. He has to be the best person in the world.]

If something happens to me you cannot forget me, all right?

Of course I won't forget you.

[Even though he's only known her a short time, he doesn't see how he could forget her. ~~The irony of that promise in a memory loss game escapes him.~~]

But let's try keep anything from happening to you anyway.

[Oops.

She nods before she just kind of... sinks onto her bed.]

I hope these memories stop. I don't want to think of anything else like that.

Me too...

[These... visions (no proof that they're memories thank you very much) are getting disturbing. He hasn't told her that sometimes when he looks at her, he sees a pretty girl with short orange hair.

A girl he's sure he never met.

Pretty sure. No, he's just not going to think about it. ]

If only we knew what was causing them.

[She shakes her head.] I remembered it when I spoke with Greg about... the idea of just being tossed aside if we didn't perform properly...

So it happened when you were talking about a similar topic...

[His brow furrows a little as he considers the implications.]

But everyone has probably has different topics that will trigger it. What a mess...

[It means this will be really tough to avoid.]

It will be almost impossible to predict when it will happen...

Well...

[Tsuna chews on his lower lip thoughtfully as he tries to make some sense of things.]

Once you know a certain topic will trigger these visions for you, you can try to avoid that topic. It'll just be different for everyone.

But who's to say if that will work? If I ask about princesses or kings or fathers--what if none of those will work again. What if it's been... used up? [She doesn't know how else to put it.

I guess it would be easy enough to test. If you want to. But... isn't it better if it doesn't happen again?

Perhaps, and it is not as if I want it to happen again, but... perhaps it would be better. To try. Maybe we could find something to protect all of us.

[Hmm, he's not sure he likes this idea, but...]

If you really want to, we could try talking about something you think might trigger it. And... see if anything happens.

[Tsuna will do his best to help her however he can.]

Should I tell you more about the things I saw?

Um, sure. That seems like a good place to start.

[Not that he knows how any of this works at all.]

[She's quiet.] The first time... [Her breath catches in her throat.] My wrists were tied behind my back, I think. I don't know what was going to happen, but there was a boy... in a robot. And it looked like a face? [This sounds really stupid. Her face goes red, Tsuna's going to think she's ridiculous.]

He saved me, and he said he was coming to rescue me. His name was Simon.

But the other... There was a man who looked like an animal, and he was telling me about the Spiral King. He said he had many daughters but when he tired of them, he would throw them away. The man was sent to... eliminate me. And he said that it would have been more peaceful if I had died in a valley. That because I had asked my father--[No not her father.] the King why I had been born, he had thrown me away. Because there was no need for dolls to have thoughts.

	✿❀✿ Nia ✿❀✿ @officialnia
am i going to be thrown away?

	✿❀✿ Nia ✿❀✿ @officialnia
what will happen when people get bored of me