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interstellar902102016-05-02 08:18 am
worthlesspride) wrote in interstellar902102016-05-02 08:18 am
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To; Pride Employees
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From; theunkown@smail.com
Subject: Remember.
Remember?
From Junkyard Carnival
Alec Campion
Wakana Sonozaki
Fetch Walker
Poe Dameron
From Flashstep
Sora
Yosuke Hanamura
From Cosmic Indulgence
Koumei Ren
Richard St. Vier
Nariko Lunae
From System Crash
Sayaka Miki
Maki Nishikino
From Crown of Thorns
Wolfram von Bielefeld
From Manticore
Ryuko Matoi
Orion Pax
Where are they now? Are you safe?
Do not trust Lesedi Santiago. Stay vigilant, stay safe. Trust your real memories.
[The e-mail account was deleted soon after sending it this message. The IP address was tracked down to a public library. If asked the person who used the computer signed in as Wakatoshi Ushijima. The truth is that Oikawa had gone out, with his body guard, claiming to want some exercise stopped by the library, quickly copied and pasted the list from a flash drive, and thrown it away as soon as he was done. There was no copy on his personal computer. Once done he headed to his physical therapy appointment. ]
From; theunkown@smail.com
Subject: Remember.
Remember?
From Junkyard Carnival
Alec Campion
Wakana Sonozaki
Fetch Walker
Poe Dameron
From Flashstep
Sora
Yosuke Hanamura
From Cosmic Indulgence
Koumei Ren
Richard St. Vier
Nariko Lunae
From System Crash
Sayaka Miki
Maki Nishikino
From Crown of Thorns
Wolfram von Bielefeld
From Manticore
Ryuko Matoi
Orion Pax
Where are they now? Are you safe?
Do not trust Lesedi Santiago. Stay vigilant, stay safe. Trust your real memories.
[The e-mail account was deleted soon after sending it this message. The IP address was tracked down to a public library. If asked the person who used the computer signed in as Wakatoshi Ushijima. The truth is that Oikawa had gone out, with his body guard, claiming to want some exercise stopped by the library, quickly copied and pasted the list from a flash drive, and thrown it away as soon as he was done. There was no copy on his personal computer. Once done he headed to his physical therapy appointment. ]
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But what does one do when the lie is more comforting than the reality? Is there some way to stand between the two, to live the better part of the lie?
[He looks to his hands, turning them up.]
These hands create things now. In that life... they chose when to create and when to destroy, and all too often... [He stops, unable to say more.]
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Well... you have a choice now, don't you?
The lie might have brought some good in your life; it gave you the means to make a new truth.
But it's still a lie.
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[A sigh, then looking Tooru in the face, his good eye perturbed, his glass eye impassive.]
Where do I go from here?
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He hadn't cared for the persona, and was glad to see Sariel let it go but if that was closer to the truth...
Well, there's always choices to be made.]
Recognize the lie, and go where your conscience tells you. If this is something good that happened to you, that's great.
[He's sincere about that]
That doesn't change the fact our boss is violent maniac who can break bones with her bare hands.
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There is that: I want to be free of *their* control, but... I can't go back to what I was, or else I'll end up no better than she is. I don't want to be that person.
Can one not take the best aspects of both natures and create something good of it? There has to be a third option somehow. For pity's sake, my stage persona is a angel who took that third option, walking the earth rather than serving in heaven or reigning in hell...
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But yes, take that third option. You don't want to go back to being a psycho killer or whatever? That's great, I support you one hundred percent.
[He pokes Sariel in the chest]
You won't find that third option here. Not with Santiago ruling your life. She's going to use you like a giant human battery and throw you in the garbage when she's used you up.
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[He might smirk a bit at that poke in the chest, before replying.]
Funny that you should mention human batteries, since I was the sort of creature who more or less viewed humans just that way. I almost deserve whatever fate awaits me here, unless there's some safe way to... unleash that part of me safely and carefully, without it turning against you and everyone else, but only on those who deserve to have the tables turned on him.
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Psycho killers who did magic? Not good, not a good at all.]
Then don't be that man.
[To Tooru Oikawa it's a simple as that]
Don't be Sawbones. Don't be Kazutaka Muraki. Be Sariel, be Kiernan. Be those things if they make you happy.
[He shurgs]
It's simple. You know better now, you're not consumed by it now, then you did before. You can fix what was wrong with you before.
[Its kind of scary, but Tooru can relate. The memories he has he still has a sense of dissonance. Like he's watching his past life. He still knows they're his, but there's distance.
And, well, the difference between Tooru Oikawa, Americana Cellist and Oikawa Tooru, Japanese volleyball player, were minimal, but he can tell that all his bad qualities were heightened when he came here.]
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[A pause, then he tilts his head to the right.]
But I'd rather continue to create than to let myself be destroyed. I think it's a better atonement, to keep creating and balance out the destruction I left behind me.
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[To Oikawa's disappointment]
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